Wolfy Dairy for Foxie [Day Five]

Cáo Cáo,

Hôm nay Sói muốn viết tiếng Anh nà. Rèn lại vốn tiếng Anh cho cả 2 đứa luôn nghen.

My dear Foxie,

I don't think we can pretend nothing happened after the conversation today. So we started with a pretty much benign question, "What is your dream?" Well, as you may know it already, at first, I thought you meant to ask what my dream career was, which, according to you, later turned out not to be the case.

For the first time of my life, I told somebody else about my dream. I think I would love to work in a media-relating field. Ideally, my job would include collecting, translating, and writing about entertainment news - games, music, movies, and whatnot. I must admit that I have never strived for that dream. I probably can give you hundreds of explanations, but you find none of them convincing. Unfortunately for me.

But I only discovered about this so-called career dream when I stopped being ruby_phoenix 2 years ago. And besides, to be honest, I don't find it very financially practical to chase that dream, no matter where I would live.

I blame it on listening to boyband music for such a long time that makes me sentimental =D. But ever since I came to US, I always felt that my life had been lacking of something. I had no one to really talk to. I couldn't find a person to share my thoughts with. I wanted to have someone to long for. Well, I bet this is not the first time you hear/read about this bla bla of mine.

I did not know what the meaning of my life is. Sure, I could go to dental school, be a dentist, work and pay for the debt, still have some extra money to spend. But that kind of life is horribly empty. I pretty much got fed up with everything at that point. Okay, take this class, take this test, do this, whatever. Who cares? I felt like I was completely stuck; and I didn't know why. I easily got irritated with my family, especially my mom. I did not see my way out.

Until you came.

Uh, by that, I mean until we decided to be a couple again.

And suddenly, everything has been reversed 180 degree. I felt like I have been more mature. I know my destination. I found my dream. In you.

My dream, is to be with you.

Everything else does not really matter anymore. It does not matter if I would like what I do for the rest of my life. It does not matter if I have to get up depressedly in the morning, face the horrible, disgusting job. Because by the end of the day, when I come home, I know you would be there for me. And it is all that matters.

I believe I will never regret anything, as long as I can be with you. Because you are my dream.

I listen and respect every single of your opinion. Honestly, I don't think conversations like these make the distance between us grow larger. I could understand you more - a thing that you always shy from. Our differences are what make us individual, make you you, and make me me. (I hope you are not interested in going out with a male version of you, are you? =D) That's why I cherish and respect these differences.

I am well aware that there have been so many things happening to both our lives at the moment. They make us, or at least me, say things that we/I don't mean. You are suffering hard enough, and I am very very sorry because I cannot help you ease your pain. Please stay with me. We are going to get through this. Look forward with me. To our future. Okay?

I love you with all my heart.

Your Wolfy.